Lead me where my trust is without borders, no seriously.

"Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders

let me walk upon the waters

wherever you would call me

take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

and my faith would be made stronger

in the presence of my Savior"

Today I read a blog post on this song. It is a really good read about why we should stop singing this song. It made me stop and rethink my own motivation of singing this song over and over again in church, in the shower, in the car, walking to and from classes, and when I am just jamming out on Spotify.

When I first started singing this song I believe that I was singing it and only meaning the lyrics when I was in church on Sunday morning, but this past summer something changed. I suddenly started living these lyrics.

I made the decision to ask God to use me for His glory. I asked Him to send me. I wanted Him to lead me where my trust is without borders. And He did.

It was uncomfortable and at times I wanted to quit. Sometimes I still want to, and some days I do. But, I am learning that letting The Spirit lead you is one of the best things that you can do. It is the best and the worst thing that we can experience.

I have been doing some soul searching these last couple of days after my Foundations and Calling professor asked us to really look at our lives and determine if we are truly relying on God and asking Him to lead us in the way we should go, while the doors that are being opened in our lives don't quite make sense or are we letting our own wants and desires lead our calling? Are we making decisions based on the outcomes we want to happen? She challenged us to really think about that and be in prayer about it.

I came to the conclusion that I am fully trusting God in parts of my life, but that I am holding on to what is safe and what I want in other parts. I need to let God have all of me because through Him and His salvation over my life I am no longer my own. I am His. And so why should I question the God of all gods, over all nations? Who am I to say no if He is calling me to minister to the stranger behind me at Target? How can I say no to a God who is all good and all merciful? Who am I to say no to Him who died for ME?

So, no, I don't think that we should stop singing 'Oceans,' but I do think that we need to mean it when we sing it. I think all of us need to think about why we are not trusting God fully and letting Him lead our every step? Why are we not truly asking Him to lead us where our trust is without borders?

I have trouble with trusting fully, even with God, and so I know that it is a lot easier said than done, but I also know from experience that when we ask Him to lead us to that place that it gets easier to trust Him. You are being so pushed to move past your comfort zone, and if you obediently follow, you will trust Him, because you simply have no other choice.

So friends, brothers and sisters in Christ, let's ask to be led where our trust is without borders and mean it. Ask God to use you for His glory and be obedient in what He asks you to do. I will be praying for all of you.

Here's the song if some of you do not know it: